The Beer Retard - December 13th, 2001

some stuff is going down at ak press and a few people are leaving the collective. it's a messed up situation, but from what i understand it had to be done. when things have calmed down, i've been asked to interview for one of the spots. assuming that they end up wanting to take me on, i've got a lot of thinking to do. part of me thinks it's a great opportunity to finally work for an organization that i believe in instead of maintaining at jobs that pay well but offer little or no satisfaction.

at ak, i'd be working my ass off and making about half what i make now. but i might actually be happy. happiness is something i've never experienced at a job. every job i've ever had has caused some kind of ethical conflict in my mind. working for corporations, law firms, the government...none of those places has ever sat well with me and i've always felt guilty for selling out what i believe in to stay in a comfort zone financially. who knows, my views may not be radical enough for the collective anyway. but if there's a chance i could get an offer after the interviewing's done, i'm going to have a big decision to make. some sacrifices in my spending habits will have to be made and i might have to get a little help from francesca with some of our bills. francesca's willing, even excited, about helping out. that makes things easier, but i'm still uncertain. like i said, i've got a lot of thinking to do.